Special Thanks To...

    

Ok, so todays post is a bit different than a lot of other posts. I'm not one to show my emotions in person, but i figured it was time for this post. It's been almost 15 years since I was diagnosed diabetes. Since then I have had one amazing person in my life who has coached me through just about anything you can think of. I'm talking about my Mom. For just about as long as I can remember she has always been there for me. Wether she was a cheerleader when I was giving my first shot (as shown below). Or even coaching me through my first pump site change. Sometimes when I was little she would even get my favorite kind of cake when my diabetes grew a year older. There are so many amazing things my mom has done for me since I was diagnosed. I know that my diabetes has caused a lot of stress for my mom, but I don't know what I would without her. Even now being 16 and going on my 15th year of diabetes I need my mom sometimes. Her and I have a Very open policy; if I need her to check my blood because I don't feel right I just have to ask. To me that is so very comforting. Knowing that even though I am the primary diabetes person, I stil have her. I know she's probably reading this so...

Thanks Mom!! Even when times get tough I know I have you! Thanks for taking this on with me. Lets make year 15 better than 14. Love you!

Understanding- Do You Really?

I wish that people could truly understand what I go through. I wish that people would back off when I say it's hard. I wish they wouldn't tell me that it's not that hard to maintain.  If I need to do over 6 blood sugars a day, then I will try, but it's so very hard. I can't just drop everything at school and work to test. It's not that simple. If I'm in the middle of note taking or helping a child, I can't just drop everything and check. If it was that easy, well let's just say it's not always easy.
   I also hate when people say they understand what it's like to wear a pump and have ketones and have high or low bloodsugars. I am willing to bet that unless you have diabetes you don't understand. Maybe you can try to. Kudos to you! But I can guarantee you won't fully(I speak from experience).  Great your trying to understand, but my thoughts are quite clear on this.
    You will never FULLY understand Unless...
        - You try checking your Blood 6+ times a day
        - You treat a high or low Blood sugar
         - You attempt Pump/ Shot therapy
 Think my demands are a little lengthy? They probably are, but I feel you can't understand something unless you truly live it.
Rachel

Low Blood Sugars

Having a low bloodsugar can be annoying to begin with. But having a low blood sugar during an Ap biology lab is the worst. I can't focus and I'm very quickly getting frustrated. It so hard. I can literally feel my Bloodpressure rising. Why is this so impossible?
  Diabetes sucks!
Rachel

15 Years In The Bussines

I've had diabetes for almost 15 years next month. Through the tough times and dramatic ruins, I've survived.  Don't get me wrong it can be annoying, but there are times where it's great. I mean for every high bloodsugar I have to think about all the good things diabetes has done for me. I know it sounds crazy, but diabetes has done a lot of good things. It's  given my mom and I a pretty unbreakable bond. I know that no matter what she's always there for me. I have also spent a number of years at diabetes camp. It's the one place I feel normal, and I love it. At diabetes camp I'm not Rachel, a kid with diabetes. I'm simply Rachel and it feels wonderful.
   Obviously being diagnosed at 21 months means I needed some kind of support system. I'm going to give thanks where it's due. I don't know how my mom did it for so long. I can honestly say she knows way more than she needs to. Of course that's not a bad thing. Of course when I was younger she was the main parent who took care of me. Now it's a bit more 50/50. Honestly I'm so thankful.
Diabetes isn't too bad! I promise!
Rachel